A No Go Decision

Fear of failure engulfs my mind, and possibility of sheer disappointment from my instructor and my other loved ones. However, a decision had to be made. Was I going to fly home or fly for my checkride? This question has been itchin at my skin this whole week. And as a Commercial pilot, and a pilot in command, I made it.
I am not going home until the 19th instead of this Friday. This seemed like the best decision for me. I only lived and have been living through my joys and hardships with only one code: persistance. I have finished if I started, and I have never backed down from a challenge at my talents and abilities. It just so happens that this upcoming checkride can sure defnitely phase me, but Iwill not back down. To me I think that going home, knowing that I tried hard and failed, feels a lot better than going home without giving this my all. I had to do it.
Sure I made a ton of sacrifices along the way of making this decsion like being alone on campus, and missing my home. However, this decision is from me, my heart. I will not back down. And no matter what you got my 110%
So its a no go home decision. Instead I will go and test my abilities.